New Experience

Every once in a while I have to host the weekend services. Nothing big, it just means that I have to transition after worship, introduce the guest speaker if we have one, and close the service while making any necessary announcements. I used to think this was a big deal because I got to be on stage where everyone got to see me. What an idiot. Seriously, what a moron.

Over the next two months I have to host like 7 out of 8 Sundays. When Brooke told me I immediately asked when I was doing communion. She told me it was the first week of the stretch, which was last weekend. I was ecstatic. I couldn't wait. And for a different reason than any other time previous. I already had the word the Lord have given me and I knew it would be time to share it the next time I got a chance to do communion.

I shared the Isa. 40 passage after giving the definition of worry after I asked if there was anyone worried about anything (at least two-thirds of the people). It went over really well. I think it ministered to a lot of people.

As I sat down after doing communion in the 3rd service, I saw something I can't remember the Lord ever showing me...I saw sheep. I saw sheep eating. The Lord even said there were some who weren't in the mood to eat that were eating. Now understand this, I didn't preach, I hardly even talked outside of reading the Bible. But it was from the Lord. He used me to feed. And as I sat down the Lord said, "You feed my sheep like that, like I tell you, and I will keep feeding you and you will keep feeding them." He took me to a passage for the first message of the dating/marriage series and I got revelation seeping out of my pores for the message.

The enemy comes to me and says, "You just want to be in front of people. It's not about God, it's all about you." But I read this this morning...

1 Peter 5:2
Care for the flock of God entrusted to you. Watch over it willingly, not grudgingly – not for what you will get out of it, but because you are eager to serve God.

I didn't care who heard it, who saw it, I didn't care that Pastor Robert wasn't there to "see me hit a home run". It is the very first time that I have ever done something on the weekend that there wasn't ANY crap in me about it being all about me. It was all about God, and all about his sheep.

I was more eager than words could have expressed to serve God by giving that word.
I have the best job in the world and it just keeps getting better.