Never Leave You or Forsake You

Lots of thoughts rolling around in my mind about Hebrews 13:5 "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."

Have we misinterpreted this verse? It seems like we have interpreted it to mean that we will never be without God. But haven't you ever felt "away from God" at some point in your life. How is that possible?

Here's my thought...just because God says he will never leave you or forsake you doesn't mean that you won't leave him or forsake him.

Holly can say to me that she will love me for the rest of her life but that does not mean I will automatically love her for the rest of mine (Just an example babe! Obviously, I love YOU more than life itself and will until my last breath).

For those braniac theologians that are already getting excited about putting me in my place, I am not presenting anything as theology, just wondering, "wrestling".

If God never leaves us or forsakes us, how is it that David can say to Solomon in 1 Chronicles 28 "And Solomon, my son, learn to know this God intimately. Worship and serve him with your whole heart and a willing mind. For the Lord sees every heart and knows every plan and thought. If you seek him, you will find him. But if you forsake him, he will reject you forever (v. 9-10)."

Is it possible that the times I have felt away from God, or that he isn't "at the table", or however you want to describe it, that He extended the invitation and I declined to attend? He didn't leave me but I left Him?

Thank you for committing to never leave me God. Help me to never leave you.