Fast Forward

10 years ago I was 20. I was still in college, just started dating Holly, working at the Arizona Biltmore as a bellman, only attended church, and had no idea where I would be in 10 years at 30. Sure, I had a good idea I'd be in ministry, but really I had no idea how. I remember being so afraid of the future. I literally could not imagine how it would all work out if it would work out.

Yesterday morning at our retreat the Lord took me back that 10 years. He asked if I had any of what I have right now in mind then. Of course I didn't. He has brought me a very long way.

Then He fast forwarded 10 years. Bam. Snapshot. Glimpse. Peek. Nothing more, but more than enough. I'm not sure I can describe what I saw it was so quick. I saw enough to be reassured though. So yesterday I was feeling pretty good about the snapshot...until today.

"Lord, that's great that my life will look like that 10 years from now, where I hesitate though is not with where I will be 10 years from now...it's how I will get there." It hasn't been the easiest road the last 10 years. Sure, my life is great and I am very appreciative for all He has given me and done for me but it has not come without a price. It did not come free. I have wanted to quit. I wanted to turn. I wanted to scream. I wanted to run. I wanted to disobey. I wanted to stay. I wanted to wait. I wanted to hide. I wanted to cry.

Joseph got the heads up with where he would be and gave no thought whatsoever to what it would take to get there...I bet if he had it to do all over again he would think twice about celebrating publicly like he did. Keep it to yourself bud, it will always cost more than you think.

Thanks for the glimpse Lord, now just help me make it 10 more years to see it happen.