Last Words

If you only had five minutes to live who would you spend it with? What would you say to them? What would you do?

That's tough.

If it were to happen today...right now...I would say to Holly:

You were the greatest gift God ever gave me. I couldn't have lived without you. Move on. Find love again. Find someone who can help you raise our children. Keep giving. Teach our kids how. Teach them to walk in the fear of the Lord. Love them for me. Tell them how much their daddy was in love with them. Tell them I will see them again . I love you more than life itself. You are my hero.

To Rylie:

Sweetheart I love you so much. There were so many days of my life that you were the highlight. The star of the show. I dreamt of you before I even met mommy. I knew you would be my first. It was God's plan...not just my desire. My life went to an entirely new level when you were born. The Lord took me to a place where I never dreamt I could go...all because of you. Some of the best revelation the Lord ever gave me came as a result of you. You were born to worship. It's who you are. Steward your gift. Share it with people. It will bring them life. At least I never had to give you away on your wedding day. I never would have...I loved you too much for it to be matched by any other man in my eyes. He better be great. He will be great. I prayed for it so many times and mommy still will every day. You deserve the best.


Tyler:

Son, my first born son, I am crying as I write this to you but I want you to know that I love you so much. More than your hands raised to the sky. I love you. Having a son changed my life. Having you changed it all. You have God's favor. It's all over you. Many doors will open for you but it doesn't mean you should walk through them. God has annointed you in ways I even have a hard time comprehending. don't take it for granted. Give, GIve, Give. God put you where you are for a purpose. It's not to keep...it is to give. Give it all. Don't hold back. I love you. Take care of mommy and Rylie. I am so proud of you my little man. And take care of the dogs...their bird finding machines.

Preston:

Man of God. Favored one. It's all over you too. God has given you a mantle son. It goes even back before your grandfather and his father. Dream it. Build it. Steward it. Leverage it. It will come easy for you. You will start beyond where I finished. You will lead many and be a part of many changed lives. It's not about you, it's not because of you. It's all God. But you have a gift. The gift to communicate...you get that from me. YOu have the gift of compassion...you get that from mommy. Mommy will help you navigate the waters of ministry. She is a deep well. Tap into it. It will save you time and heartache. The greatest job in the whole world is hearing God and sharing it with a captive audience. Don't be in a hurry. God knows the best timing.

As a kid I dreamt of being a husband and being a father. But never in my wildest dreams did I think I would be so blessed to have it so good as I did being your husband and your father. I will love you forever. So forever it is.


Wow. I didn't plan on this post going that direction. Nonetheless, there it is.

Thank you Lord.